Now I know how a mum would have felt

Pikachu just spoilt my Dcammy with his itchy hands.
The lens is stuck, meaning it can't take any pics anymore ):

I was enraged when I see him mishandling my Dcammy.
He kept pushing the lens back forcefully!
(Usually he'd just leave it as it as so I hand Dcammy to him when he pointed at it)

I grabbed his left hand and beat him 4 times.
Stopped.
Look at dying Dcammy on the table.
Grabbed his hands & wanted to beat him for the fifth time as a last warning.
His hands is in a fist, refusing to open, refusing to be beaten again.
I saw the look on his face, I felt soooo guilty I can die.

I drop his hands immediately.
He ran for the door, out of the bedroom.

I cried T________T

Cos I was so guilty.
Even though the 'beating' I had spoken of was a mere quick touch on his palm(I made sure that a toddler like him wouldn't even feel a sting), I think I'd scared him with my actions & that pains me.

Now I know how a mum would have felt.

 

UPDATE: I just fixed my Dcammy! <3333333333333333
Pikachu's still trying to butter me up 5 minutes ago.
I'll never be rid of the guilt. Serves me right.
But I sure hope he learns, despite all.